sugar off by emily gibson

i am an impatient narcissist
 
a kid in line for the ferris wheel
yanking on your nice coat
asking why lines take so long
 
whining about my starvation, it
has been a full three hours since i ate
up some of that good validation
 
i count my past lives on my fingers
and then i lick the funnel cake
sugar off my fingers
 
i want to achieve a chill level
of drunk so i can explain myself to you
and not throw up in your lap
 
saying: ‘i am a kid at the top of this
fucking wheel of mediocrity, just
trying to remember what fun is’
 
i’m sorry i am asking a lot of you
tugging on your nice coat until it stretches
and i wrap myself in the fabric 
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​Emily exists in Austin, TX. She self-published two microchaps called "bummer" and "i imagine god tags me in an instagram post," the latter of which can be found online somehow. She tweets at @elimygisbon and grams at @blanketcellphone.